if I had to be completely honest with myself,

I’m tired,
I’m not physically tired, it’s deeper than that, it’s in the soul
I’m fucking tired, tired of going through this shit
I’m tired of everything not working out
I’ve tried, I really have,
but I cant lie & say it’s not affecting me
It’s not that I don’t want to live,
it’s more like if GOD were sitting across from me, right now ..
there would be a part of me that would just wanna go to Him & say, listen ..
I’m done, I can’t do this anymore, I’m physically & mentally spent
& I’m done, it’s a silent battle too,
a battle we hide from the world from the people we love,
& from the people we want to love us, because who wants a broken person?
if they knew?
if the people in your life knew how broken we were, would they stay?
and then that raises the question, how do i fix this?
can I fix this?

I don’t know